It seems every day I ask, what the fuck is wrong
My happiness be on a switch nigga off n on
This life I wish I could just switch just wanna be gone
My mind be on the fucking fritz face is looking calm
And sometimes not even my bitch gon get a response
I'm getting distant need assistance feel I'm breaking bonds
I'm getting heated for no reason devils got me drawn
I need to learn to weigh more pros than these fucking cons
I just think of this world and make sense of it
Realize we beautifully insignificant
Go out your body then you would witness it
I just need help, but I cant admit this shit
Need to get over my self
Start treating my mental health
Hurting my fam I can tell
Feel like I'm Under a spell
Under dark clouds where I dwell
I know the pain gone prevail
But that don't mean that I failed
Stay with the grind like a rail
And honestly this music shit was an escape
Writing these emotions down for those who relate
In hopes that maybe one day I could afford an estate
So I started working hard ain't got time to wait
See I take my catastrophes and
Turn them bitches to a masterpiece and
Now it's smthn that they have to see man
Now they wanna hear my raps released damn
Verse 2 - Player 4:
Man, it's times like these i don't know what to do.
Just sitting, pensive in my bedroom.
Sober as fuck and wanted not, man right now,
i could really use a shot.
If I ain't got the liquor, then I'mma pop a pill.
Taking anything to give me that good feel.
Relieving stress of worrying about these dollar bills.
Through the windowsill, I watch the xanthophyll just
fall to the ground
Feels like nothings real
Drifting through my head, I can't leave, I'm weather-bound.
I'm stumbling over my words,
just tryna get my self heard in this hurtful earth that
whirred the caged bird
In my head, peaceful thoughts instead is all i want man.
I said, in my head peaceful thoughts instead is all I want man.
Just sit back and let the music take you away,
to a place that you can surely stay all day.
Let your mind drift, baby, just sit and relax.
Put the record on and let the fuckin ti-ime pass.
Pop a methadone if you really need to, but
I don't do that anymore, I know what the pills do.
Stick to smoking sess because that make me feel good,
All I want in life is to be understood. (yeah)
I write these rhymes in hopes,
I get a little fuckin piece of mind,
if not, I choke from my own thoughts strangling me.
Lemme tell you just how insecure a person can be.
Im, just, fuckin,
Stumbling over my words,
just tryna get my self heard in this hurtful earth that
whirred the caged bird
In my head, peaceful thoughts instead is all i want man
Because right now im better off dead.
(Said im better off dead.... Fuck..... Man pass the god damn blunt)
DJ and producer Samrai (Swing Ting) offers their first full-length LP, a vibrant electronic portrait of South Asian migrant experiences. Bandcamp New & Notable Jul 4, 2023
